The Grumps

I’ve got me a case of The Mean Grumps. I would say I just woke up in a bad mood, but I’ve been in a bad mood for the last several days. So I’m not sure I can write it off to something as simple as waking up with the grumps. I mean, I did wake up that way. But several days in a row? Ugh.

The most annoying thing about it is that I can’t put my finger on any exact cause. I think it’s a case of a lot of little things piling up to feel like big things. I feel unsettled and frustrated and annoyed. But not with any one thing. With everything.

It’s not really that things are going so wrong. It feels more like nothing is going right at all. My life seems to be flying away at the seams, leaving me to chase down thread after thread. It feels I will never be able to catch them all. I try to step back, take a deep breath, and remind myself that I don’t have to catch them all — not all at once. I can start with one thread. And then move on to another and another. And yet, when I think about doing that, I feel itchy and impatient all over. I don’t want to go thread by thread. I want it all different NOW. I want it all fixed NOW.

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And yet, I know thread by thread is the only way to go. The problem is that the thought of it makes me so tired. I feel exhausted by it. There are so many tasks, both physical and emotional, facing me. And, honestly, I don’t want to do them. When I think about going step by step and putting in the work and hours and mental and physical effort needed … Ugh. It makes me want to curl up in a ball and let the world pass me by. It all feels like Too Much.

As I was lying in bed this morning, it hit me: The Grumps. I turned up my ceiling fan to make the room cooler and cuddled up under my blankets and thought about how I didn’t want to get up at all. Wouldn’t it be much better to stay there, in bed? Yes, it would be. And that’s exactly why I had to get up and start on my day. Even though I knew I would make little progress on all the things I needed to do. Even though I had me a case the The Mean Grumps.

2 thoughts on “The Grumps

  1. Just stumbled across your blog and I feel the same way. I have the most BLAH outlook on everything. I’m so FRUSTRATED with some elements in my life. Oh, I found you because I was looking at Colores de Carol swatches, and stumbled on here! Just letting you know your blog is refreshing, and I want you to know, you are not alone! Hehe, now I am going to look at your nail stuff, because it makes me feel so much better. Nail polish is the best medication. Take it easy, Angie

    • Hi there! Thanks so much for stopping by, for taking the time to read, and (especially) for your kind comment! I’m sorry you are in the same BLAH place. It sucks, for sure. It’s always good to know we are not alone, and I hope life is looking and feeling better for you soon. Also — yes!! I could not agree more that nail polish fixes All The Things. There are so many days when my nail blog becomes my mental “happy place”. *cyberhugs*

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