You guys couldn’t possibly know this, but I started this blog as something of a last-ditch effort to get myself writing again. At the time, I had been in the dumps of writer’s block hell for two years. (Yes, I really did just type “two years”. Ugh. It’s depressing just thinking about it.) I had two first-draft novels completed, but felt stuck and unable to edit them. And, the worst part was that I felt my creative energy ebbing away. I was in that place where I had begun to believe I would never write again. I believed I would never have another story idea, and that I would have to go through the painful process of, once more, figuring out who I was. Because it was obvious I wasn’t a writer. After all, a writer writes. And I wasn’t doing a whole heck of a lot of that. I wasn’t doing any of that. And my depression was winning. I had been struggling with it for a long time, and I thought I was making gains on it. But, as long as the writing didn’t come back, depression always had a toe-hold in my life. No matter how hard I tried to run away from it, it was always there, shadowing me like the big, black dog that it is.
So, faced with all of this, I did what any sane person would do. I started a blog! Uh … yeah. “Sane” is not the word. But, anyhow … I figured I would try to give myself a new start. A more positive start, as a way of trying to take a more positive outlook on my life, my writing, and myself. A last-ditch effort to tell depression, “Hey, Bubba. You think you own this. But you don’t. So … hit the bricks.” I didn’t know if it would work. Actually, scratch that. I figured it wouldn’t work, and that I would be an abject failure at it.
What I didn’t expect was that anyone would read it. And yet, you did!
Truly, I am humbled and shocked and just happy as heck about this. I wish I could track each and every one of you guys down to give you a “thank you” and a big hug in person. But, realizing this would be a bit creepy and stalker-ish of me, I will settle for this:
The deepest, most heart-felt, most teary-eyed “THANK YOU” a person could possibly manage over the internet. Thank you all so very much. For helping me to (ever so slowly) regain my courage and my voice. For encouraging me with your kind comments and your “likes” and support. For inspiring me with your beautiful words, amazing artwork, and mind-blowing photographs. For showing me how much beauty there is in the world. For reminding me that life is out there, just waiting around for all of us to grab hold and enjoy it as much and as loudly as we can. For helping me, in just a few short months, to feel “at home” here on WordPress.
And so, to show my thanks, I thought I would give you all some flowers. It’s traditional and sort of classy. And it lets people know how much you really care about them.
So, instead, I have decided I will give you a pony. I know, I know. It seems extravagant. And ponies take up a lot of room. Not to mention they eat a lot and … well, we all know what happens when an animal eats a lot. What goes in must come out, after all. But, still. He’s little. And cute. And he won’t take up much room
To all of you who have decided to follow my blog … To all of you who have stopped by to “like” a post … To all of you who have even stopped by just to read for a bit … Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you, thank you.